Lost Season 3

(Episode 1 - Bad Luck..!)
I felt so lost now. After ORD so much things happened to me. Waited 4 hours for my pink IC but worst still my Certificate of Service not ready yet as they cork up e whole thing tt caused me to go back to n fro to sign n now they on e process of making e COS for me.

(Episode 2 - Anger..!)
Not only these, im jobless now. not tt i dont want to find a job, i applied NIE n got rejected once. I was shocked on the outcome coz i was confident i will get in. So since i felt so into teaching i din give up n applied again online and at the same time i sent a post mail appeal letter, resume, results transcripts, testimonials and CCA records hoping that it wil be a positive reply after this. But well i waited n now it was like 3 weeks already still no news. May its becoz its 12th of the month and end of 2006 pay. As u guys knw all government bodies will received their bonus. Shit isnt it? maybe becoz of these they r taking so much time to reply and maybe enjoying themselves.. haiz..

(Episode 3 - Destiny??)
I tot of finding part time job while waiting but i m afraid wen suddenly e reply come in then i got accepted to do contract teaching then it will be such waste period to work part time for a moment. Well on e other hand actually i got offers from 2 company to work with. One is Innotrek wic i ve been long working with and another one is Asia Outdoor where my best fren is working now. Innotrek offered me full time contract but i don knw how to accept coz i see myslf getting stable and settle down wif good pay so its like i see myslf get e teaching JOB. but well looks like waiting is really hurt man.. coz it gets me more n more bored n broke. I juz hope MOE get back to me asap either its positive or negative reply at least i can start my alternative moves for future.. Not like waiting n rott.. at e same time Innotrek loves to keep me in e company n ofcoz e job tt i love to do.. dealing wif outdoor adventure programs.. with kids n adults. but i don knw how to say wif this current dillema im facing.. its really hurt to see my parents suffering. Esp my dad whom driving taxi day n night to support us.


(Episode 4 - Downfall..!)
Ever since my dad got retrenched all things change. And for me making decision of stepping down from NTU or withdraw makes me feels useless now. Not that i m bothered so much but now i felt how low my position now. Last time where all my achievements and goals reached, ppl look up at me n respect me as wat i am. I m humble but i realised God is fair. coz life is like e waves u will be up there not long n u still have to go down.. n now im feeling so down.. i juz hope tt i got my decision fast and ofcoz of now views n opinions of those ppl i m close wif are equally important coz i knw somehow it helps.

(Episode 5 - Picking up..!)
NOw i can tell u tt i hardly sleep at night coz even for e short term i don knw wat i gonna do n how abt long term? well its all blurred.. so i got to pick myslf up again as soon as possible. i cant possibly stay where i am now.. i was an achiever n i have to still stay as an achiever.. i cant give up.. common iskandar.. get up.. do wat u love to do.. go for wat u aim n strive for ur excellence.. ARGGGHGHGHHG...........!

Monday Bluez..

It was an upset monday for me.. haha y? coz i came for my inservice training back in base n wen i was there. they told me dont need to attend as i am goin to ORD and also i already attended a course and certified so dont need to attend la.. haiz.. so i made my way down to Funan to reccee some software.. looking for Adobe Premiere Elements 3.0 for video editting. i wanna pickup this new hobby too. like taking pictures and videos of explored places like mountains n waterfalls.. n more. mainly sceneries and expeditions.. in a form of collections and archieve so that one day wen i got old who knws its some good memories that good to flash back n share with ppl whom i love.. But well e software was quite expensive.. about $100++ but tts e education pack.. wat i m looking for is e Standard pack that don need for me to upgrade in e period of time.. so well actually i can place an order while waiting for e shipment but well i was thinking abt my cash too.. so may i shld wait till i am really stable to get e software at e same time get a good videocamera..



Afterthat i head to Geylang Serai. juz for fun.. took a long journey bus and ate at Geylang alone.. do some window shopping but ended up only bought a VCD of Pop Yeh Yeh Concert held in Singapore last year.. haha u ppl must be wondering wat e hell am i listening to malays 60s songs.. haha i love e songs coz its evergreen n will never get bored listening to them.. n these songs was so popular among e old ppl nowadays n i respected e singers n wen i listen or played them.. the old ppl also join me listening n enjoy their great old 60s time.. haha... don be surprised if u catch me in Malay Weddings singing Pop Yeh Yeh songs yeah? yup i was born in the 80s.. but i think i got e 60s soul hehe.. juz a form of entertainment n for me to chill n relax at home la..hehe..
Now that im homed.. waiting for someone to sms me or maybe she will be online later.. hopefully..

Thanks..

Nothing much for today.. juz that happened that i recall back to those days wen i juz came to Coast Guard with all e great buddies.. NOw that i left with 2 weeks or 3more blocks to clear and ORD. And ofcoz to start my career as soon as possible.. I am glad that there r so many ppl in my life tt supported me for my decision tt i made to be a teacher despite of my NTU course withdrawal..



Anyway, i am so thankful to a newly found fren, Norsiah. Call her Nor only haha had a good chat with her online. n well Nor if u happened to read this i juz wanna say thanks alot for sharing n all e encouragements. Well hope we will meet up soon n keep in touch.



Oh ya i dont wanna miss this coming Sports & Fitness Expo dis coming weekend.. it wil be held at suntec and admission is free. Anyone mind acompanying me there? juz to check out some sports apparels n courses available.. hehe..

Loneliness

At this point of time, i was at home just wasting time lying on my bed, surfing, and talking to my mum. Its just that today i realised how lonely am i. Sometimes i felt that i am way too much for being so nice to ppl around me.. too nice to my frens.. That i somehow blinded by the surroundings. Ppl are taking advantage of me without i realising. And Well being too nice to ppl also make me realised that sometimes i got to be selfish and dont bother about ppl who don appreciate me. I went tru alot in life that i thnk its hard for ppl to understand. Relationships? Family? Studies? Social Life? all of these had an impact in my past. And they are all still fresh in my mind. Wen its time to get alone at home or even outside, e tendency of all these memories to flash back is for sure be high.

At this point i was also thinking wat about me n my best fren Raihan and my cousin Nadia. After i intro them to be frens and they ended up being couples to fast and now its the end for e couple. And well wat i m worried about is my frenship n my bond with my cousin. I was somehow affected by their outcomes coz it involved family and also best fren. Raihan whom i always spent time during our free time to chill n chat n now became a lil bit distant. I dont knw but i did my best of my abilities to make things fine but they caused it to be these way. And i dont want to be involved that will caused things to go sour but in the end it happened and this is e outcome.

Life Moves On..

Have not updated my blog for so long.. haha.. well as from e last blog u have seen or read.. i have stopped schooling. Now serving my balance NS in Coast Guard again.. Back to team Alpha where i belong.. Thanks to TL SSI Tan. Im like a precious asset to them n i felt im home again. But its different with new officers around. Not Familiar with them. Missed those days of fun, actions and hard work. Missed colleagues like Hasyim, Mafiz, Khazin, Amin, Dali who have left e team. And ofcoz missed those SC during my time in GRB. Things a different but i adjusted myslf very well to blend in to them n e team. As usual im a noisy n super on SC there.. haha.. like to suan ppl n create all e crazy scenes. Im gonna finish my service end of this month n looking forward to settle down with a good job.


Currently i am keen on goin to NIE for teaching. Majoring in PE n wanting to teach PE in secondary school. Already applied but stil have no reply yet. Most prob will get it n i m confident of it. But im still not sure im still eligible for e Bachelor program. IF not then i have to do e diploma prog them transfer to BAchelor prog after that. So more or likely i have confirmed wat i wanna do in e future. Teaching is my the immediate goal for now. Afterall its good n stable for me to support my family.

Well recently bored as usual. Nothing to do will juz go out or stay at home surfing or sleeping. Actually trying to get new hobby wic is Marine Aquarium. But need some $$ for a start n kinda headache for me coz i don knw wat to do with my fresh water tank. Fall in love with marine fishes after some reccee to marine shops. Seeing e corals, live rocks n marine fishes makes me so tempted to start it soon.. Marine fish so colourful n attractive thats y.. wait till next year i sure gona pick up this hobby.

The higher i climbed the harder impact i fall

Well its a big turn of my life.. i have made a decision to stop schooling n go out to work to save up n help my family too. I attended only first 2 exams and forgo e last 3 papers. Kinda upset n dissappointing at 1st. I have to make such decision that caused a big turn of my life. Lots of ppl sayings.. lots of ppl comments and lots of ppl gave me different opinion. But well it's abt myslf. It is my responsibilities to take good care of my family and make my parents happy. In 1st year NTU itself i suffered so much w my poor grades and being slow learner. and if i gonna go on i gonna take up 4-5 years of degree n it will such a waste of time. By then i shld have atleast earn 5yrs of working experiences and maybe grabbed a part time degree along the way.. And on the other hand, i have made such decision coz i realised its time for me to pay back to my parents for all they have done for me all these while. Esp my dad who have been working so hard ever since he was job retrenched till now.. So to lessen the load that he's taking i think i have to make a BIG decision to fall back using my diploma.. Its kinda upset at first but well life must go on.. it took me days n days to recover n get better.. goin alone all tt to do some soul searching.. n wishing that i have made e correct decision in life tt i wont regret in e future.. n hoping tt someone will be by my side to support me esp my weak emotions.. Well some frens obviously were there for me.. but yet to find e special ones that cares n concern tt really touched my heart.. So now im doin camps as usual n finally after 2 years Innotrek made me upgraded to be 2ic or Campchief in their camps.. but well this is juz for a while.. i m gonna join e Force to serve my ballance 3 months n after tt i m gonna find a full time job soon to get everything stabalised n save up.. n ya to strive for e rest of my goals tt yet to achieve.. GO ISKANDAR...!!

Abseiling Level 1

12th February 2006, Sunday, i went to AJC for Level 1 Abseiling course with Rachel and Charlene. Whole day course under Ace Adventure. Was a very good learning experiences. Though have done Abseiling few times finally got e chance to take e proper course n certification. Joanne from Ace Adventure is really a nice lady who willing to share most of her knowledge n experiences. Glad to knw such a nice instructor like her.. I wont deny if i will come back for my level 2 course and also take my sportsclimbing level 2 under her. We enjoyed our course and as for me i will do it prequisitely and achieve my level 3 Abseiling Intructor as long as im still a student. So tt wen i graduate haha.. i can start my business fast.. More courses to come.. Yeah im Gung Ho for more.. its never enuf hehehe..