Loneliness

At this point of time, i was at home just wasting time lying on my bed, surfing, and talking to my mum. Its just that today i realised how lonely am i. Sometimes i felt that i am way too much for being so nice to ppl around me.. too nice to my frens.. That i somehow blinded by the surroundings. Ppl are taking advantage of me without i realising. And Well being too nice to ppl also make me realised that sometimes i got to be selfish and dont bother about ppl who don appreciate me. I went tru alot in life that i thnk its hard for ppl to understand. Relationships? Family? Studies? Social Life? all of these had an impact in my past. And they are all still fresh in my mind. Wen its time to get alone at home or even outside, e tendency of all these memories to flash back is for sure be high.

At this point i was also thinking wat about me n my best fren Raihan and my cousin Nadia. After i intro them to be frens and they ended up being couples to fast and now its the end for e couple. And well wat i m worried about is my frenship n my bond with my cousin. I was somehow affected by their outcomes coz it involved family and also best fren. Raihan whom i always spent time during our free time to chill n chat n now became a lil bit distant. I dont knw but i did my best of my abilities to make things fine but they caused it to be these way. And i dont want to be involved that will caused things to go sour but in the end it happened and this is e outcome.